My sweet Nathan brought me breakfast in bed this morning. He was so sad. I don't think he slept much last night. He came in my room at 6:30 this morning with waffles and in a low voice said "Mom, I'm so sorry". I could tell it took everything for him to not cry. I told him that I don't like to see him so angry and I am sorry that he is having such a hard time. I told him I love him and that we would get through this. Some how that seemed to make him just be okay. He gave me a hug and a kiss and went to get ready for school. This will be a constant battle as he struggles to accept his feelings about my illness, his anxiety and depression that comes along with that. I wish you could all know him, he is so amazing. He has strength that I don't think he is aware of, and when he does not feel he is strong enough to fight, I will fight for him, no matter what!

Well, it is now 6:15 p.m. and we are just getting ready to have dinner. Nathan seems to be having a better afternoon (thank goodness)! He is still sad and it will take him a long time to come to any acceptance. I am hopeful that all of this help he is getting will be beneficial. He meets with the counselor tomorrow, so hopefully she will have some positive input. We are having a pretty quiet night. I rented a movie for us to watch last night (which did not happen) so we are going to watch it tonight! I think a quiet night in, just hanging out will be good. A Mommy & Nathan night! Nathan just reminded me that he has Boy Scouts tonight, so I guess we will be having the Mommy & Nathan night tomorrow instead! He has recently gotten involved with Boy Scouts and is really excited about it. :)